For some time, I've been clean and at times it has been hard but I think about my love for me and know that I can't or refuse to fall back into that self-pity State of Denial and that now I understand that it's not about me also, there's a saying that is so true which says in order to keep what you got you must give it away. I hope this will help someone to realize that life is bigger than they are and more important to someone else other than you. Thank you for your time.