A leading theologian recounts her journey of faith, shaped as it has been by caring for a profoundly disabled son for forty-five years, while also being a writer, university teacher and Methodist minister. This completely new version of the author's Face to Face (Epworth, 1985) has a different perspective, articulating the way in which this life-dominating experience has given privileged access to the deepest truths of Christianity. The book therefore combines narrative with theological reflection. The narratives provide background for developing theological accounts of cross and creation, as well as testifying to personal feelings and spiritual insights.