This journal is about How to be in love with CHRIST first, to heal the pains of your life. In this book I share my story of how I choose to be in love with CHRIST first, and allow His love to heal the pains and shame that other people caused me and the ones I caused my self. His Word has been medicine to my life. You will see in this journal how I have become vulnerable with sharing my trials hoping to encourage you through hard times. Even in the horrible things I went through GOD made and continues to make all things work for my good; so others become whole. These situations were not meant to destroy who God destined me to be . But He used them so I can come out as pure gold, to glorify Him and be a living testimony of His love. It is because of Him I wrote this journal knowing that through this process He has never and will never leave me. Choosing to be in love with Christ is the best decision I have every made and that anyone else can do. Take your time with this journal, do not be afraid to sit down with this journal, and the bible; be vulnerable, as you let GOD search, purify, and heal you.