This is a memoir of my life, and how God used death, loss, alcoholism, sickness, anger, and divorce to transform me through His redemptive work. I reveal how early in my life I tried to control all the events that occurred, but this only brought more pain, hurt, and heartache. I was going down a dead-end path that was leaving me stagnate in my spiritual life, and broken on the inside. However, God got my attention, and offered a way out of all the distress that I was going through. He offered me hope, love, and forgiveness, and taught me how to use what I had gone through to help others who are hurting and feeling hopeless. My life story is a living testimony of God's love, grace, and transforming power through the cross. He took the ugliness and dysfunction that was in my life, and turned it into a beautiful gift from which others may benefit. My prayer is that others who read my story may see their value as God's chosen child, and come to experience the most precious relationship there is.