From a Catholic childhood and a secret world of pain, through Melbourne's gay club and drag scene, drug world, and deep self-hatred, Lawrence Prasad was sure he'd gone too far for God. Then, in a Catch The Fire meeting, the Father's love broke in - and nothing was the same.

In this raw, honest, and hope-filled memoir, Lawrence traces his journey:

• from abuse, abandonment, and orphan-hearted striving
• to a life-changing encounter with the Father's outrageous love
• to a slow, layered process of inner healing, restoration, and freedom

Along the way, he opens a window into the often-hidden world of pastors and leaders - sharing powerful stories of a mega-church pastor on the brink and a convicted catholic priest whose unmet needs were never safely held. With compassion and clarity, he shows why inner healing and independent pastoral supervision are not luxuries, but lifelines.

You'll discover:- A practical, Spirit-led approach to inner healing

• How Jesus "time travels" into your memories and meets you there
• Why forgiveness is about your freedom, not their worthiness
• How identity as a beloved son or daughter changes everything
• Why those who care for others must also have safe spaces to be cared for

This is not the story of a man who finally got his act together. It's the story of a Father who never turned away-from a broken boy, from a drag queen, from a burned-out pastor, from a disgraced priest-and who is pursuing you with the same relentless love.