My goal is to admonish you in a godly loving way -success contradistinction, it beholds in what the individual is trying to accomplish. However one thing for sure, you need God on your side as you endeavor life. Adam fall put the entire human race in a sinful state; nonetheless, just because you're born in sin doesn't mean you haft to stay there. You have a choice; you can repent and ask God for forgiveness or keep heading down that same old road. The question is do you want out, if so God's provision always prevail.