How do I deflect from it? How do I repel it? How do I fight it? How can I trust myself? I keep saying I can do it, but I always end up back with him. Nothing has been said about it since that day. I hope he re-evaluated what has happened and realized that we are playing with fire. It\'s full speed ahead to even more if we continue. I, for one couldn\'t live with that, but feel so powerless to stop it. All I can do is pray for God to take this ratchedness from me. Lord Have Mercy Read more to see what choices our main character makes. Is she able to resist the sin from within?