In by myself, Lamar Mickey opens a raw, honest window into the devastating impact of loss and the unshakable faith that carried him through the most difficult chapter of his life. Chronicling his journey as a husband, father, and child of God, Lamar reflects on love, grief, and resilience following the loss of his beloved wife, Nilka, to Colon Cancer. With poignant storytelling and heartfelt transparency, he captures the beauty of their 23-year union, built on love, partnership, and unwavering devotion.

Lamar weaves a narrative that honors Nilka's strength and the lessons she left behind. Her faith in the face of illness shines as a testament to the human spirit and the power of gratitude. Even amidst pain and uncertainty, she found joy and purpose-an enduring legacy Lamar now carries forward for their family.

by myself is more than a story of loss; it is a celebration of life, love, and the eternal presence of God. With every page, Lamar reminds readers that even in moments of solitude, we are never truly alone. This deeply personal book offers hope to anyone navigating grief, inspiring them to embrace faith, cherish memories, and trust in the healing journey ahead.