This book is a compilation of journey-oriented journal entries that tell the story of the journey of the mind out of a trauma-ridden life, mostly out of childhood abuse that continues through most of James's life. This journal is a collection of thoughts that a person with similar experiences can understand, where he comes to conclusions about life and God for himself and others in his life. This book is not just a personal journal but an in-depth look at the mind of a recovering human being and a microscope into mankind's struggle with reasoning and its relationship with God every day. It is also a good look at the mind of a person who struggles with schizophrenia, trying to come to terms with an alternative reality and a reality created for him through the shame that trauma automatically carries with it to the people he is supposed to love but who have been shamed by the trauma evoked by his recognition of it. Gone is the reinforcement of that shame. After reading this book, you may have a better understanding of people who experienced childhood trauma. The insight gained will help humanity to dream and to achieve the unachievable by understanding the steps out of adversity. This is to the effect of implementing some stoicism and tools that help to overcome huge hurdles. For anyone who struggles with disabilities, this book will instill hope that their stories are important and that overcoming them is just one step after another, but it is also called living.