Out of Darkness is not just a story about depression, it's a story about what happens when everything falls apart... and God meets you there.

In this raw and deeply personal memoir, Ryan invites readers into his journey through anxiety, depression, guilt, and overwhelming shame. From the outside, life appeared stable-but internally, he was unraveling. The weight of his choices, the fear of being exposed, and the belief that he had gone too far left him feeling trapped, isolated, and hopeless.

There were moments he questioned everything. Moments he wondered if the pain would ever end. Moments where escape felt easier than facing another day.

But this is where the story turns.

Out of Darkness is ultimately a story of redemption, not defeat. Through faith, surrender, and the relentless grace of God, Ryan begins the long and often difficult process of rebuilding his life, piece by piece. What follows is not instant healing, but a real, honest journey marked by setbacks, growth, and the discovery that God never left.

With powerful reflections rooted in Scripture and lived experience, this book speaks directly to those who: