You are not sworn in but your soul champions the prejudices. Looking at the cross to bear is very difficult by imagination.When you pray and move into action the owner of the cross will come to help you. You do not know what to pray but you see miracles happening.Jehovah watches over his faithful servants. the cross becomes too heavy when you try to help God. Only do your own and leave the rest to God. You cannot help your maker He will make you marvel as he fortifies you, The people will envy you when the going is well but you must be strong.