This fourth book is the most autobiographical and "memoir-like" of the series, pulling together in one volume the author's experience of life-long inner religious and emotional turmoil, growing up in an Amish/Mennonite community, memories of formative childhood experiences that shaped his spiritual life, stories of ancestors who he describes as prophets and priests and dividers and dismantlers and with whom he identifies, experiences of illness and the grace to go on, and reflections on the eternal Home that has come more clearly into view for him. Kanagy reminds us that acknowledging our pain and brokenness is the only pathway to healing.