What started out as a flippant dare that was thrown out into the spiritual atmosphere turned into a journey by a dumpster that turned my assumptions of myself and God upside down. I didn't think God would show up in messy places like back alleys, places of injustice, and my heart. But He did. Through visions, contemplations, and a different way of communicating with God, this book has become my testimony of healing. It recounts the most uncomfortable road that I have ever willingly walked down. This is a journey of the thousands of small steps I took while I sat for forty days at a dumpster.