And If Not: The Story of Saul the Caterpillar is a story about a caterpillar named Saul, who has not yet received his wings. When his prayers go unanswered, he struggles to believe that God is still good. It appears his circumstances are worse than everyone elses. In a desperate attempt to find answers, he visits an old, wise butterfly in a rotting cinnamon tree who has a special story of his own.