East-London families adhered to an unspoken code of conduct in the 80s. You can throw a punch to make a point, stolen goods make financial sense, and a few too many beers were par for the course. But you never abandon your family.

That was Emma's Dad's biggest mistake, but not his first. An elite powerlifter, he dragged his family into the worlds of steroids, cocaine, illegal raves, debt collecting, fraud and infidelity. Then one day, he just left.

In All The Times You Were Not There, Emma reflects on life growing up in the ever-changing suburbs east of London, with the turbulence a father who treated their front door like it was revolving. In this poignant and moving memoir, she shines a light on the impact chasing success, highs and desire not only on the individual, but on their children. But also offers profound hope as she shares how a new faith in God, helped them all turn things around.