The City of Hope: An Autobiography of Love

These first 4 books in the Loved Back to Life Series, reveals Pearl's personal search for meaning and purpose in life today when death was the only option she thought existed. She wanted to believe in hope buried very deep in her heart, but that meant trusting in a God she no longer believed. She had survived her traumas and SRA abuses from family and cults through a survival mechanism known as Dissociative Identity (Disorder or DID). Learning why God allowed this is the point of her autobiography...not in the how but in the Who. She cries out to God through Jesus to explain why she

should keep on living carrying these memories of abuse, pain and suffering that still controlled her choices in life. If He would or could heal her with a reason and will to continue, then they would keep talking. How God brings healing to all in her system of people...culminating in one person living today is poignantly revealed in her journaled conversations from the beginning with Jesus, to understand God's love for her and all of His children. She shouts, denies, gives up, submits, challenges, obeys and finally chooses to trust in God's love as He overcomes her fears to live renewed again. As seen in the introductions in each book, God's desire is to give back hope to all who have lost it or had it stolen and empower each of us to rise above our circumstances in life through His eternal love living within and through us.

Out of the Darkness: Parts One & Two are chronological in their search for understanding and depict in drawings and words the evil still at work in memories controlling choices today...and God's repeating requests of them to trust Him to heal them/her in His time as they are ready and as He chooses for them, not as the world or themselves desire it to be done. Questions like: 'How can you say I'm worthy of your love after everything I've done and what's been done to us/me? If you agree I've done them then how can I not feel guilty and live with that pain? How can I forgive myself or my abusers? Can you explain clearly to me how our suffering can be used to help others for good? WHY ME....? How can I serve you knowing that the healing never finishes and more suffering will be ahead on your path for me?'

Books 2 & 3 Becoming Pearl & The City of Hope continue their process of discovery, acceptance and trust to reach where they are today, as one person on the path Jesus has put before them... with Jesus revealing how the answers to life's questions bear repeating often in the midst of our struggles and pain...in order to eventually trust in God and not in our own understanding. The drawings and words reflect their ongoing battles to believe in who God is, what He wants for her, and in the reality of the Kingdom of God around us, in us and in the heavens. She knows that nothing new is in her revelations about the Lord or His will that isn't already declared in the Scriptures for everyone...but prays these books will remind those still suffering alone as she did, that He is there with them. She shares her hope in the future to become a growing reality to accept each day as he heals her heart. Her story truly is truly an autobiography of God's love